So It's the new year. Many things are new. A NEW semester of College with all NEW courses, (which officially starts tomorrow), many NEW faces of returning interns I have yet to meet, Brio Missions going to a NEW country... Guatemala, and I turn 20 in about 12 days....so I guess that means a whole NEW decade.
The thing that I really hope for this year is a reNEWed passion for God, that I would have a never ending desire to find ways to just totally worship God with my life. 2008 was just a constant longing to be close to God, no matter how much I tried, my heart was just never in it. I know it was probably the lack of effort on my part, but I just can't seem to understand why I could not WANT to do it. I guess that would be the work of Satan trying to pull me away and giving me doubt. But no more.
Soveriegn Lord, You know the deepest parts, I thank you for unflailing grace. Oh when I'm far away, You love will never fail. My rock, my fortress reveal you face. Take my life, Take may heart Take the sin that keeps us apart. Come revive us, send your fire You're the only one I seek. Your name is higher Your name is higher Your name is higher Your name is higher -lyrics from "Renew" by Tim Milner
This song just happened to play as I began to write this.....funny how God works. What amazes me is that even when I do a really crappy job at trying to draw closer to him, and pretty much put him on a shelf and not really even let him in, he still is there ready to take me back. Why? Just because he loves me, and he doesn't ever let go of us , no matter often we try to let go of him. I hope that this year I can draw close and actually work at it and not just go with the flow of things, and read the bible for me. I go to a Bible College, and it is pretty easy to feel like you are getting enough of god through chapel, small groups and bible readings for class. But I need to do it for me and not for anyone else. I think I'm going to start by doing to One year bible plan ( i know i've already have days to catch up on), and I think that this is the perfect place to share about my progress and what God is teaching me.
I could go on a lot longer, but I really must get to bed. It's late and I have classes starting at 8am. Have a wonderful year in 2009.
